Sunday, August 16, 2009

I hate dreams like these....

I don't fear too many things. I'm not squeamish. I'm not afraid of bugs. I don't run from lizards or frog. (Snakes. I don't like snakes.)

But I do have fears.

Like all moms, I fear the loss of a child. I've had scenarios going on in my head of how terrible it would be. Crazy thoughts, I know. But the same thoughts go through my head sometimes for all of the people I love. What I would feel if I lost them.

I had a dream last night that I lost one of my children. I dreamed that Runnin' Man came and told me that Sir-Talks-A-Lot was in his bed dead. He was supposed to be asleep. It didn't seem like I was in a rush to get to him or even surprised by the news, which I find strange. I reached up to him as he lay still in his top bunk and he didn't move. I put my arms around him and put my hand on his heart and calmly said, "His heart's not beating."

I started to cry as I hugged him and I woke up. It was 6:20 in the morning. I couldn't go back to sleep. Felt like I wanted to cry, even though I knew I was dreaming.

Then later in the morning, I watched Premonitions, the movie starring Sandra Bullock where she dreamed of her husband's death. This was my first time watching this movie and I couldn't help thinking how coincidental that was.


Okay, so sorry about the grim post. On a good note, Hubs and I took the kids to see G.I. Joe. They loved it. I thought it was a great film as well. I started to just let Hubs take the boys, but decided to go ahead and tag along.

Miss Missy is the girliest-girl ever! When I asked my four year old if she liked the movie, which was totally filled with action and bombs and shooting, she said, "I knew they were gonna kiss at the end!"

Leave it to her to find the one "GIRLIE" thing in the entire film!


Chocolate Covered Daydreams said...

I hate dreams like that but you have to remind yourself that it is ONLY a dream.

How cute...she was waiting for the kissing at the end. Yep, she's a girly girl.

Ms. Bar B: said...

Dreams are often had to understand... sometimes just fears manifested or the result of too much thinking/worrying about certain events.

Glad to know the movie was good. It looks like non-stop action. I need to make my way to see it, and the latest Transformers movie.

The Peach Tart said...

I love me a girly girl.

So Not Mom-a-licious said...

Seriously...those ARE the worst dreams. Especially when you aren't acting how you thought you would or should be. Where you move all slow and don't do the right things. Whenever I have crappy dreams like that, they seem to stay with me all day and I end up in a little dream funk that just makes my heart feel so heavy.

But it was just a dream and we can thank God for that!

silverhartgirl said...

I am so sorry that you had that dream. I hate dreams like that Just instand dread that last all day,but they do make you take stock and even more thankful for your babys ( if that is at all possible)